The purpose of my blogging is to connect with my readers on a personal level. I really enjoy sharing my passion for painting and creating through tips and advice but the personal writing is very therapeutic for me too! I hope you don’t mind me sharing a bit of my personal journey with you today!
I did something this weekend that I have been wanting to do for a very long time! I got a tattoo! I know it seems trivial, millions have them, but it’s such a big deal to me. I’ve always been so afraid to get one! I should clarify. I’ve had four c-sections and several surgical procedures with little more than Ibuprofen for pain relief, so the potential pain of getting a tattoo didn’t really scare me. I was more afraid of what other people would think! I know, I’m a self proclaimed rebel but that really only applies to paint and decor! Outside that, I am a total people pleaser! I have been all my life. Over the last year, I’ve come to realize the “pleaser” in me was really trapping me in. I was afraid of rejection, ridicule and judgement. I’ve been working really hard to overcome the fears and my little “Freebirds” are symbolic of an end to that struggle! It has taken me 36 years but I can finally say, I feel free!
Creatively, I am at peace with the work of my hands and I’ve let go of the need to meet other people’s expectations. I appreciate the trust and artistic freedom my clients give me and I value the relationships I get to build with them! I work for their approval, not Facebook applause or Pinterest Pins.
Physically, I have embraced my curves! I have embraced every flaw. This came only after years of tearing myself down and being self critical of my body. I’ve come to realize, my worth comes from within! It has nothing to do with the size of my jeans or the numbers on the scale. Don’t get me wrong, I want to be healthy but I don’t want to condemn myself or try to be what the rest of the world considers “normal”.
Spiritually, I know God loves and accepts the flawed me. I know that despite my flaws, He thinks I am valuable and has a purpose for me. I am free from the politics of “religion”. Mind, body, and spirit, I declare myself healed.
All that said, I will still fight those voices of doubt. Fear will still creep in but I will not allow it to rob me of freedom. I have a lifetime of bad habits to change but I have a plan in place and a resolve in my heart! I thought very carefully about the placement of my Freebirds. One of the reasons I chose my wrist was because I wanted to be able to see it. I also wanted it to be seen, not hidden. The placement was perfect! I am a left side sleeper so it’s the last thing I see when I close my eyes at night. I am absolutely in love with my sweet reminder of freedom and look forward to one day telling my grandchildren about this time in life.
Are you struggling to be free of something? I’d like to encourage you to keep fighting! You can overcome! You don’t have to go out and get a tat to show it but you should declare it! Write it down, share it with a friend and use it to bless someone else! Thank you for allowing me to share this experience with you! xoxo